Dear Friend

Dear Friend

I guess that I miss you… I can think of no other reason why I might be writing to you. It’s not that we haven’t chatted recently. I suppose if you count the few words that we say to each other every now and again, then we could still be considered friends. Yeah, we’ve spoken to each other recently but we haven’t really. I’ve listened but I haven’t heard. I’ve smiled but haven’t had fun. I’ve laughed but haven’t meant it. 

I’m not really sure what happened.  One moment we were okay and the next moment you were avoiding me. Plans were cancelled, conversations cut short, promises broken. It seemed as if my world was falling apart and that you had no intention of helping me through it. 

I suppose you have your reasons. I wish I knew what they were. I wish that I could understand what it is that you’ve been going through. I know you well enough to see that that smile is a fake and I’ve spoken to enough of our friends to realize that something’s up. But truth be told, it’s no longer my business. What ever the issue is, you haven’t trusted me with it. 

I get so sad when I think about the friendship we shared. It upsets me to think that it could fade so quickly. I’m angry with you all the time and just the mention of your name gets me worked up. I get angry at you for not caring, for not being there for me when I needed you, for not making an effort and for allowing our friendship to fade into the abyss and barely even notice. 

But I’ve come to realize something. The reason it has fallen away from your life so easily is because it probably wasn’t that important to you to begin with. And so it is with that in mind that I will laugh at your jokes and pretend to make promises about catching up soon. I will greet you as a long lost friend and ask the right questions. But it is also with that in mind that I will leave and remind myself that I was never more to you than an acquaintance. 

I need you to know something before I build up my walls to bloke you out of my life, I need you to know that I have always and will always love you my friend. And if ever you need me I will be there to lend a hand or provide a shoulder on which to cry. My friendship is forever and although you may not deserve it, it will always be true.

I write this letter with all the love in my heart.

From Kat